Thursday, July 29, 2010
I remember the exact moment and where I sitting the moment when I was told my dad had prostate cancer. I can remember what went through my head. I panicked but wasn't worried, I have known many people who have gone through this and survived. I knew my dad would beat this. I was told in the home I spent most of my growing up years. I remember looking at dad and asked him how he felt about things, he told me he felt good and that things would work out okay.
On June 24Th 2010 almost two years to the day, I was told my dad had passed away peacefully at home. It is so hard to put into words how you feel about losing the only man you have loved your entire life. My dad was my rock, I would call him with life altering challenges and he would help me realize they weren't so big after all. He had a calming demeanor about him.
As I think back over the last two years we where able to spend with my dad I think of the lessons we learned as a family. I would call him at least twice a week to see how he was doing, he would always turn to conversation onto me, and ask, how are you doing, are you doing well in your church calling, how is Makaila, is Shane enjoying work, are you having family prayer and family home evening, are you reading your scriptures? In the end my dad taught me, he never complained, he only asked what am I suppose to learn from this, I know that on June 24th he learned everything he needed to learn, as he was able to return to his Heavenly Father.
I think maybe his family learned from him, unconditional love, a stronger power of the atonement, and the strength that families are together forever.
I cannot imagine a life without my dad in it. I am grateful for the gospel of Jesus Christ and the Plan of Salvation. I miss him, and look forward to the day we can all be together as an eternal family.
I watched my father endure, and it helped my testimony grow, at his funeral a quote was read by Neal A. Maxwell " With gospel perspective, we can know that when we endure to the very end, we are actually enduring to the very beginning. Thus, rather than viewing this virtue as delivering us expiring in exhaustion to a finish line, we are brought intact and victorious to a starting line!
I look forward to the great reunion, I can have with those I have loved and lost, but for some reason I look forward to hugging and seeing my dad again the most.
I love you, Tin